walk it off

i’ve given up on doctors
whatever happens next
i’m gonna have to roll with it
i’ll have to walk it off
even if that’s tricky with a cough

a-doctorthe way they disregard you
the way they make you wait
the way they don’t know anything
not until too late
deprive us of our dignity
disregard our truths
we’re crippled with bureaucracy
they’ve robbed us of our youth

we should not be paying
for what we aren’t getting
and we’re not getting anything
from medicine these days
it’s $twenty here and $forty there
they’re yanking on our chains
we’re paying for their schooling
and we’re paying with our pain.

i’ve given up on saving
now that i know they get it
when you get sick
and go down quick
and that’s where we’re all headed
i’m gonna have to live it up
I’m gonna have to spend
either way
i’m busted in the end

the more you have
the more they take
the more you’re sick
the more they make
and that’s messed up
and fucked up, both,
what happened to
the hippocratic oath?

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© 2016 kStan(ly) Lanning
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Daily prompt – deprive

daily rites

you forget that it’s permanent
you have to take the medicine every daymedicine-bottle-pills
this is for keeps, it will never go away
I never thought I’d be the kind
to be able to handle the daily grind
of pills and poultices and rituals
of being good each day, habitual,
of living with the un-curable
i thought it would be unendurable
most days i can deal
surprised at how almost good i feel
then there’s days i wish i had
the strength to hurl this stuff into a canyon
misery loves company
but company prefers a healthier companion

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© 2015 kStan(ly) Lanning
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this verse fits the Daily prompt – companion

unbalanced

i’m getting to know my extremes
but not how to fix them
or what it would mean
to somehow eclipse them
i go from zero
to a thousand on the
energy scale
from dancing like a demon
to beaching like a whale
not in baby toddles but
in epidemic leaps
i play with aspirations
but i don’t play for keeps

when there is oomph
i have to embrace it,
imbibe it, let’s face it,
gotta run with the ball
while it’s still in the air
but then it deflates
or it’s me that deflates
and i can’t care
can’t move for lack of interest
can’t think for lack of mind
i’m zombie-zoned
and what was toned
becomes a pile of mush
i don’t just mean my tush
all that i’ve worked on,
my physical state,
my mental capacities,
disintegrate
and i think i am sunk
i think i can’t swim
but next day i wake up
and just on a whim
i’m rolling towards beastin’
as if it was planned
flip side of the coin
where i couldn’t i can
maybe it’s time
to look into
my dosage
stabilize
the voltage

 

volts

 

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© 2015 kStan(ly) Lanning
Daily prompt – eclipse
cradled with the Daily prompt – baby, while I work on something new