the hamster

the bad thing
about old ways
they creep back in
if you don’t look out
a folly forgotten
re-blossoms
a small dose of friction
rekindles addiction
old ways are stains
on the soul
the habit-trail
of human hamsterness
back on the wheel
running in circles
i thought i quit you
that was it with you
and here you are
concealing the scars
do i give a guy a break?
do i make the same mistake?
do i fall?
do i fail?
do i bail?
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© 2014 & 2016 kStan(ly) Lanning
picture by ricky kharawala, courtesy pixabay.com
Daily prompt – folly

not even in the room

like quitting cigarettes
i think i’m thinking

of something else
i’m thinking of you

i’m addicted

and if you don’t smoke
you don’t know
what i mean
but you do, so youlove-1181067_960_720 do,
but i’ll never tell you,
so you won’t.

i think i’m able
to focus
on something else
some conversation
some person
standing in front of me

is ostensibly holding
that i am ostensibly part of

he thinks it’s two-way
he thinks i hear

he thinks i’m smiling
at the content
or the context

and i’ll jump in any time now,
he assumes;

i’m not even in the room
i am smiling at a moment
at a memory of you

had to stop and tell you
in a virtual confession
i can’t quit

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© 2012 kStan(ly) Lanning
picture by waldryano courtesy pixabay,com
Daily prompt – smoke