not who i am

lately noticinginvisible woman
how things change
how we change
but think we are the same
how we say
that’s not who i am
when now it is

now we are
not who we were
with every passing moment
we are new and different
not always better
not inescapably worse

our who we are
is a present tense
forward from
who we were
precedent to
who we will be
but we cling to the origin
not willing to begin again
with who we have become

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© 2015 kStan(ly) Lanning
sticking to the Daily prompt – cling

waiting for the Christmas snow…

on Christmas eve, as in the past,
4 sisters with eyes of glass
watched through windows laced with frost,
excited giggles, fingers crossed
they held their breath, their hopes sincere
maybe there’ll be snow this year

the next year brought a Christmas trip
the youngest sister bit her lip
and didn’t think they ought to go,
as this year they had promised snow
but they returned when New Year’s Day
had melted all the snow away.

the next years brought the wedding veil,
the oldest sister set to sail,
the 2nd sister moved away,
the 3rd sister refused to stay.
and so the youngest, all alone,
a little sad, a little grown,
watched the sun in summer’s glow
and then on Christmas, watched the snow.
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© 1978 & 2017 kStan(ly) Lanning
picture by jill111, courtesy pixabay.com
recreated for the Daily prompt – year

listen, mr. everything sucks

I could have you hold you
love you teach you
I can’t reach you
I could feed you need you adore you
I can’t do more for you
things you have to learn yourself
others have it worse
you have choices you have chances
life is not your curse
others have it worse
I wish I could impart my mind
my hope my faith my drive
I could give you life but I can’t
make you feel alive
you are you, your own mind
there are things you have to find
your life’s no worse than other’s lives
I can’t convince you otherwise

live to live
that’s all the reason I can give
live to live, not just exist
to build a list
of life
a legacy
a life
to leave a mark
to take a stand
to be a part
to be a man
to make a change
participate
enjoy the small
be in awe
of the great
admire desire
conspire retire
….laugh
………..live
…………….please

cry_baby

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© 2012 kStan(ly) Lanning
picture by threadbombing.com, courtesy bing.com/images
an answer to the Daily prompt – awe
and the Daily prompt – admire

Jessica’s Future Plans

Jessica wants to be a nun
i doubt that she’ll have any fun
wearing dresses every day
behaving in a saintly way
speaking softly, singing songs…
…i doubt she’ll be a nun for long.

Jessica wants to rob a bank
with a high-powered rifle & an army tank
then take her friends with her on a cruise
and buy them tuxedos & dresses & shoes
she said it at dinner & no one protested…
…i just hope that she doesn’t go get arrested.

Jessica wants to own a castle
with velvety blankets, silk curtains with tassels,
with a dragon, a drawbridge, a moat & a frog,
somewhere near Spain in a mystical fog.
Jessica dreams up these things quite a lot.
Moms thinks she’s a genius…
…i’m thinking she’s not.

 

jessica
picture by kingtiger.deviantart.com, courtesy Google Images

© 1976 kStan(ly) Lanning

Discover challenge – dream
Daily prompt – bridge

ghosts who pay the bills

ghosts

ok i’ll admit it,
part of me wished he’d
come running downstairs
and hug me & thank me & move on from here.

ok, most of me wished it.

it’s the lesson we learn as a mother,
we can’t let them know how it hurts.
we can’t be the center,
we knock before entering
we can’t teach the lessons
that must be self-learned

we got shy
since we got burned
we turned into ghosts,
ghosts who pay the bills.
but we can’t let them know how it hurts.

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© 2009 kStan(ly) Lanning
Daily prompt – burn
and Daily prompt – ghost