not who i am

lately noticinginvisible woman
how things change
how we change
but think we are the same
how we say
that’s not who i am
when now it is

now we are
not who we were
with every passing moment
we are new and different
not always better
not inescapably worse

our who we are
is a present tense
forward from
who we were
precedent to
who we will be
but we cling to the origin
not willing to begin again
with who we have become

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© 2015 kStan(ly) Lanning
sticking to the Daily prompt – cling

Switzerland

swt up

i promise you
my aim
is not
to hurt you
but to help
call me
switzerland
i am in
the middle
i can be
the bridge
to bring
you back
together
don’t shoot
your angry
arrows
at me
i won’t be
strong enough
to give you
the support
you’ll need
to get across

swt up

 

© 2015 kStan(ly) Lanning
Daily prompt – bridge

not even in the room

like quitting cigarettes
i think i’m thinking

of something else
i’m thinking of you

i’m addicted

and if you don’t smoke
you don’t know
what i mean
but you do, so youlove-1181067_960_720 do,
but i’ll never tell you,
so you won’t.

i think i’m able
to focus
on something else
some conversation
some person
standing in front of me

is ostensibly holding
that i am ostensibly part of

he thinks it’s two-way
he thinks i hear

he thinks i’m smiling
at the content
or the context

and i’ll jump in any time now,
he assumes;

i’m not even in the room
i am smiling at a moment
at a memory of you

had to stop and tell you
in a virtual confession
i can’t quit

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© 2012 kStan(ly) Lanning
picture by waldryano courtesy pixabay,com
Daily prompt – smoke

his what?

can’t control my thinking
or board another train
his eyes
his smile
his hands
his hands
his hands
can’t  turn it off/
down/out
music
scents
sounds
suggest
obsession
bad bad me
his hair
his eyes
his handshis smile
his hands
his hands
his hands
taboo
awakening
the constant state
bad me
bad bad me
his words
his hair
his eyes
his smile
his hands
his hands
his hands

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© 2012 kStan(ly) Lanning
picture by joao silas, courtesy pixabay.com
Daily prompt – obsessed

one of the few

sunlight dancing on the water
a breeze in the trees as we wafted by
sergeant birds, all black till they flew
then yellow/orange breasts showing
and the sky – – oh the sky
angel clouds,  whale and rabbit,
or foot, or dead fish
depending on your angle
willows already weeping
egrets perched like vultures
fountains in the middle

fountains
once by magical, twice by musical,
third time, soaking wet
but yet – an adventure
bird’s eye view of the waterfall,
turtle on a log,
AK says it’s a trick
so people will go over
find out it’s fake
have to pay for the extra hour,
turtle jumps in the water
as we get closer
so many people in the park today
so many different kinds,
different things doing
but all the same
enjoying this incredible
long-awaited spring day
basking in sun rays
breathing in fresh scents
simple pleasures can still conquer all
i hope you’ll both remember this,
a good day with your father

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© 1999 kStan(ly) Lanning
picture courtesy bing.com/images
Daily prompt – clouds